"Then I pray to you, O Lord. I say, 'You are my place of refuge. You are all I really want in life.'"

Psalm 142:1-7

I'm reading the entire Bible this year thanks to a handy gift from Donatello (the One Year Bible, which is conveniently arranged to help people like me who always begin and end our "read the whole Bible" attempts in Genesis or Exodus). And today was a rough and sad day for me; so after I wallowed a bit in sadness and disappointment ("a bit" might be an understatement), I finally did what I knew I needed to do and picked up the Bible to get caught up on my readings and focused on God instead of myself. And I read the verse quoted above, wondering why it is so difficult for me to keep centered on God and why I act like I need so much more than God. Sometimes I feel like I read scripture and Christian books and don't internalize or really learn any of it. I guess that is why our relationship with Christ, like life, is best defined as a journey rather than a destination.