I did it. I turned in my two weeks notice today, and it went as well as it could have. I know that at many firms and companies these type things are rather impersonal and routine, but my firm is relatively small (about 25 attorneys) and close-knit with monthly dinners for the attorneys and whatnot. I chose the firm because I like a sense of community, but a personal investment of sorts also makes it more daunting to leave.
For quite some time, I've felt like we were trying to fit a square peg (me) in a round hole (the firm), but I could not figure out what my next step should be. After much prayer and thought, I realized that I do not have to know what the next perfect, permanent step is to know that it's time to move on. So I told my mentor today as well as my former mentor, and I wrote a letter and am putting a copy in each attorneys' chair (in an envelope marked "personal and confidential" per suggestion) very early in the morning.
I am moving all of my things out of my apartment this Friday and to my father's house in my hometown. I'll stay with friends here in Macon next week and possibly the week after while I work out the remainder of my notice. On May 15 I'll leave for Geneva, Switzerland and meet up with my friend Sam a few days later in Zurich. We'll travel to Malta and then on to Rhodes and Athens. After he returns to the states, I'll head to Santorini. Then I'll fly to Spain and explore southern Spain until I return on June 18. When I return I plan to spend a lot of time with my nieces and friends and family, read, relax, rest, exercise, and basically chill out for a while (just in case my time on the coast of Spain isn't enough:)
I've also completed my application for mission opportunities through One Door. There are a variety of positions, but I am most interested in Young Adult Volunteer (the cut off age is 30, so I'm getting in right in time:) opportunities, especially the position in Nashville. These are eleven months in duration and include working with groups such as at-risk youth, homeless, Hispanic refugees, etc. I imagine I'll have a phone interview in the next few weeks, and see what happens from there. Regardless the program doesn't start until September, so I have plenty of time to just be. For now, I'm just being prayerful about it and thanking God for an answered prayer and the peace I feel about all of these decisions.