* This post is shamelessly copied from this post on this blog.
I'm the girl who spends entirely too much time editing a blog post, letter, or brief because I think I'm only valuable if people think I'm perfect.
I'm the girl who likes to talk about irresponsible or lazy or "insert another adjective here" people to remind myself that I'm not that "bad" because at least I don't do what they do.
I'm the girl who often struggles to notice the good over the bad.
I'm the girl who had to do something she never thought she would to understand that there is no sin that I'm not capable of committing.
I'm the girl who sometimes wonder why faithful Christians want to be friends with me. What do they really think of me? Do they think less of me b/c I'm fairly new to this whole "crazy Christian" thing?
I'm the girl who really thinks five pounds make a big difference. Or at least enough of a difference for me to waste hours thinking about it.
I'm the girl who sometimes overshares to distract you from who I really am because there's a part of me that can't believe you'll like what you see.
I'm the girl who wants open and honest relationships yet feels incredibly stung when given constructive feedback.
I'm the girl who worries that she said too much. And I'm the girl who does say too much.
I'm the girl who gets mad at her family for not being exactly who I think they should be. And I'm the girl who gets mad at myself for being so unreasonable.
I'm the girl who always has to have on concealer and who powders her nose and puts on lipstick a ridiculous number of times a day.
I'm the girl who found time today to write this post, check out Facebook several times, go by Starbucks twice, attend a birthday party, chit-chat over cheesecake, workout, and grocery shop, but didn't spend a minute in God's Word despite the fact that I'd say that was one of the most important things a person can do--and that it's one of the things that has been most life changing for me.
I like how Los ended his post:
"But you know what?
More than all of this.
I’m a guy who is going to continue to let God use him in spite of all that $hizz.
Because in spite of all that crap…God is using me and is only just beginning.
When are you going to stop waiting until you are out of your sinfest and let God use you in the midst of your arrogant and sinful chaos?
Get over yourself.
It’s better that way."
p.s. I'm grateful that I'm working from home tomorrow. I get SO much more accomplished that way. Plus I get to sleep later, wear pjs, watch the news, and just generally feel grateful that I'm no longer an associate at a firm that doesn't get it.