Thursday, September 25, 2008

I'm That Girl*

* This post is shamelessly copied from this post on this blog.

I'm the girl who spends entirely too much time editing a blog post, letter, or brief because I think I'm only valuable if people think I'm perfect.

I'm the girl who likes to talk about irresponsible or lazy or "insert another adjective here" people to remind myself that I'm not that "bad" because at least I don't do what they do.

I'm the girl who often struggles to notice the good over the bad.

I'm the girl who had to do something she never thought she would to understand that there is no sin that I'm not capable of committing.

I'm the girl who sometimes wonder why faithful Christians want to be friends with me. What do they really think of me? Do they think less of me b/c I'm fairly new to this whole "crazy Christian" thing?

I'm the girl who really thinks five pounds make a big difference. Or at least enough of a difference for me to waste hours thinking about it.

I'm the girl who sometimes overshares to distract you from who I really am because there's a part of me that can't believe you'll like what you see.

I'm the girl who wants open and honest relationships yet feels incredibly stung when given constructive feedback.

I'm the girl who worries that she said too much. And I'm the girl who does say too much.

I'm the girl who gets mad at her family for not being exactly who I think they should be. And I'm the girl who gets mad at myself for being so unreasonable.

I'm the girl who always has to have on concealer and who powders her nose and puts on lipstick a ridiculous number of times a day.

I'm the girl who found time today to write this post, check out Facebook several times, go by Starbucks twice, attend a birthday party, chit-chat over cheesecake, workout, and grocery shop, but didn't spend a minute in God's Word despite the fact that I'd say that was one of the most important things a person can do--and that it's one of the things that has been most life changing for me.

I like how Los ended his post:

"But you know what?
More than all of this.
I’m a guy who is going to continue to let God use him in spite of all that $hizz.
Because in spite of all that crap…God is using me and is only just beginning.

When are you going to stop waiting until you are out of your sinfest and let God use you in the midst of your arrogant and sinful chaos?
Get over yourself.
It’s better that way."

I agree.

p.s. I'm grateful that I'm working from home tomorrow. I get SO much more accomplished that way. Plus I get to sleep later, wear pjs, watch the news, and just generally feel grateful that I'm no longer an associate at a firm that doesn't get it.

16 comments:

Thomas said...

You have inspired me to wear pajamas to the office tomorrow, Ally.

TC said...

I have to say that I'm equally "guilty" of a lot of that stuff.

I think it's called being human.

Aaron said...

Working from home today!

boohoo said...

I'm the girl who sometimes overshares to distract you from who I really am because there's a part of me that can't believe you'll like what you see.

I'm the girl who wants open and honest relationships yet feels incredibly stung when given constructive feedback.

I'm the girl who worries that she said too much. And I'm the girl who does say too much.


I'm that girl for sure. It's like you plucked them right out of my head.

I'm the girl who likes to know I'm not the only one.

Sara Jane said...

I am so many of these things too! I loved this post.

PS- I have no office, so I'm almost always working from home when I'm not on the road!

cdp said...

Get out of my brain!

This was lovely, and I related hugely to every single one.

Yay for contract work!

ella said...

I am also a girl that obsesses over 5 pounds, though I don't like to let it on.

I finally found time to read "Mere Christianity" last night only because I was sick and couldn't really do much else.

Wish I were at home working from PJ's too.

HappyascanB said...

I'm convinced 5 pounds makes a difference. . . .

love the ending. . .

Anonymous said...

You're that girl...who is one of my very best friends and inspires me! Love you, Isabella

Laurie Stark said...

Several of these describe me perfectly. This one particularly struck me:

"I'm the girl who sometimes overshares to distract you from who I really am because there's a part of me that can't believe you'll like what you see."

Yup.

Nice to meet you!

Anonymous said...

Totally amazing how much more is done when you have your own space and time. I'm glad you found a good place where you see things the same way.

Lib said...

oh yes...i can pretty much relate to all of these.

you are not alone Allyjack!

Anonymous said...

this post was like a breath of fresh air, thank you! i felt like i was looking into the mirror. i also have time to go to starbucks, check face-book a million times, watch my tv shows but i some how forget to have my daily quiet time! and yes...5 pounds does make a difference! :)

ps. i may steal your idea ;)

Anonymous said...

PSS. I got your comment about my gym routine and thought I'd share :

M,T, W, F - 45 minutes elliptical, 20 minutes stationary bike and then I alternate days I do weights for arms and legs :)

Thursdays - just yoga, my "easy" day!

although i am finding it harder and harder to stay on that bike (i do it after the elliptical and weights).

Scotty said...

I liked this.. I may have to do something similar sometime :)

Jennifer Owens said...

I can be that girl too.

It's humbling to realize that God still wants to use us in such broken states.